Damn. I am not sitting well. Since the 55 mile bike ride on Saturday, I've been taking it easy, resting. But today I'd planned on getting out on the bike. Unfortunately, it was 90 degrees with high winds and humidity, so I didn't want to push myself. Now, though, my body is screaming for me to get my heart pumping and my skin sweating. Hopefully, I'll get to sleep easily tonight. Maybe, in the morning, I can get out on the road before getting ready for work.
I've been meaning to all summer. It hasn't happened yet. But there's a first time for everything. Right?
Ya, what ever. I'm going back to Battlestar Galactica.
I've been meaning to all summer. It hasn't happened yet. But there's a first time for everything. Right?
Ya, what ever. I'm going back to Battlestar Galactica.
He gave his mind and body for this country.
Current mood: pissed off
So, tommorrow my soldier will finally get his final formation for his retirement. Hey its only been three months since he retired! I wonder what kind of tribute they would be paying him if we hadnt settled in the immediate area of his last duty station. Okay now Im going to "rant" a bit. This man has given 15 years to the army, three tours overseas in war zones and not once has ever been in trouble, not even ever threatened with a article 15...and for all of that and the fact that he laid his mind and body down for this country, literally, he was medically retired as a air traffic controller for the army because after coming back from Iraq he has PTSD so bad that he couldnt do his job, his devastating injury to his back and knees, oh, thanks for going over there and giving it your all, now we are going to as unceromoniously as possible evict you from the army, take away more than 2000.00 of your pay,wait three months before we even ackowledge you were in the army and then all we are going to give you is a army accomodation medal, which is kind of like getting the yearly, " hey we appreciate you and your work" you'd get for being at any job come Christmas...no bonus just ...hey thanks...Oh but the good news is you now qualify for food stamps! So far we have gotten three appointments for his VA intake and three cancelations. Social Security sends us a letter that says, we got your information but we have a huge influx of requests for benefits, we will get to you eventually! Meanwhile, using the child support calculations and his current pay for the last three months his kids have gone from over 700.00 a month in support to 33.00! Its not just us that suffer! Can you image being a mom that has a now senior in high school and a freshman and have to take that kind of pay hit??? Like his daughter screamed at me over the phone, how am I going to get my school clothes?? It's not fair to them either! Its my job to stick by my man but Im facing a very serious illness of my own now and Im being told I have one year to get this disease turned around or I am in hard core trouble. He cant take a job for two reasons. One we cant afford to hire someone to come in house and take care of me. Im bed bound most of the time and secondly his mind is so blown with PTSD for being at war for this country. SO, what do we do? well we keep trying to reassure that ex wife and those kids, we are working on it and we keep making those phone calls to VA and Social Security.
I have posted once before on this site and actually got a response from it, however that interest quickly faded. My soldier still isnt bathing. We have lived in this crappy rental for nearly three months now and he is still taking "whores baths". If you dont know what that is, if youre military info stunted. This is where your soldier goes to the sink and washes his face, his pits , his crotch and his ass...hopefully in that order. This not washing his body or soaking in a tub started after his was ordered to a firing range despite the fact he was on profile for weapons and ammunition. Well we dont want you handling it and dont want to hear about how you cant handle being around live rounds being fired...just get out there and keep count. As a wife who loves her husband and would like to have a normal sex life...lack of hygiene stunts that. He still screams out in his sleep and has asked me to be a filter between him and the world because he says he cant handle it. So, everyone has to talk to me and I tell him the important stuff that I cant handle. When I say everyone I mean everyone. Even his own parents and immediate family. He cant handle even talking to his own kids on the phone. This is becoming more and more of a challenge for me as my days with this megloblastic pernicious anemia eats at me. Ive lost 60 lbs since Feburary, I have little energy and less strength. My body is melting away and patience with it. I love my man, I worship my soldier but I'm not being taken care of because he lives in his " room". I feel horrible about his condition but when its just you and your severely effected VET, you get kinda pissy when its been four days and one hot meal would be a blessing. Lord Im sick of cereal. We cant afford to hire anyone and Im just sick, sick and freakin tired.
So, Sgt Dieziger...thank you for showing up at work everyday even though you screamed all night in your sleep,thank you for making sure everyone around you got thier paperwork on time,thanks for all the hours you stayed late at the office to get all those DD what ever forms Spc Fubar needed because he got drunk and got a DUI, oh and thanks for showing up and bailing out all those so they wouldnt have to face the humilitation of thier wives, girlfriends,company commander, thanks for showing up at every Hey we need a volunteer to ...move someone ...wash a car...sell baked goods...visit families and thier newborns in hospital...sit with families and thier soldiers in hospital...Thanks for staying late and showing up early so your commander wasnt embarrassed when they didnt have thier shit together for the training meeting...thanks for all the very long hours you have sat and listened to young new soldiers and thier families so atleast they felt like someone cared.
Thanks for serving our country and laying down your mind and body now could you just quietly disapeer and let the rest of us off the hook? We are tired of seeing your blood shot eyes pale skin and grown out beard. We need you to slip away and stop reminding us that any of us could be you at any moment. Let us keep beating our chests and prostating our meager war cry. Get off post and stay there. Your one hundred mile stare is no longer welcome here.
So, what Id love to know is ...where are all those " angry americans" , "patriots" or " dont you remembers"? I hear you screaming...Leave no man behind! What all of you arent getting is even when we manage to get them home alive and not in those hard silver steel coffins with our countrys flag drapped on them,they are just as dead. Inside they are just as dead, mobile corpses are what many of them are. Have we not learned our lessons from our Veterans? Our country is again being filled with a generation of mobile corpses!